Chimes | Summer '93

what's left of loneliness,
of out-of-tune bells
and random memories
of devastating beauty
of the last clouds
before the sky ends

what's left of everyone,
of everyone's hands
and broken vows
of quiet october nights
in nuclear plants
before this life ends

what's left of haste
of speeding trains
and spelling mistakes
of you into my eyes
of my partial blindness
before this line ends.

Criminal Mind vol. 1-3

PACIFIC

stranded on a japanese island
thrown into an hawaian volcano
just my arms and legs' graveyard
in the corner of a room.
waiting for the bravery of a moment
waiting for the courage of a lifetime
so long that every clock now
looks familiar.

I've let you into my soul
that's where I've gone wrong.

airplane drones in my evening
pacific like the ocean I know not
haven't I already paid enough
for not being yours?
am I missing anything?
just take care of yourself while I'm away
as long as I'm not awake.

I've let you into my soul
that's where I've gone wrong.
as if my skin wasn't cold
I'm letting you leave me alone.

******

RED

so welcome back
all the ways I pictured you
they don't make you justice
I must look like a wreck
in my graceful loneliness
epic love is epic.
how do you feel about
my soul shred into eights?

since it's raining in here
don't leave your waterproof smile
on the doorstep
now let my blood run slow
like magma, then go away

so welcome back
after a thousand years of sunsets
the sun himself
I must look like Eve
cuz I feel like no one's ever loved
before me
how do you feel about
me wondering how you feel?

since it's raining in here
don't leave your waterproof smile
on the doorstep
now let my blood run slow
like magma, then go away

*****

SELLING A SOUL

why bother waiting
when everything is settled
when my brain is a meadow
where violets blossom
in any winter day
when both my hands are full
of broken curses
that I'll never say aloud
wonder why?

I don't think I know how to trade my soul
for a fairly, freely declared love
do you? you who roam like a spider
the corners of my life

a farewell to everything
when everything is gone
long before you
to live off dust and mirrors
back to mess and distruction
where it belongs
where I do belong
and used to dwell
right where the rain is resting

I don't think I know how to trade my soul
for a fairly, freely declared love
do you? you who roam like a spider
the corners of my life

and now please, come back to me
you punk love, you three-chords song