THE ONLY ONE

I need that memory to surface from the sea
of days and miracles I've never seen
and once again my mind is empty,
there's room enough for you
to let coincidences happen a-new.

I'm the only one
who's had enough of hell and paradise on earth
of all the things that come not to last,
I'm the only one left.

here comes december, twelve odd years elapsed
the curve of destiny and hope is straight
pointing like an arrow towards you now
so I see where I'm going, but I don't know how

I'm the only one
who's had enough of hell and paradise on earth
of all the things that come not to last,
I'm the only one left.

IN A GREAT BALL OF FIRE

look at the colours, look at the sea
tomorrow we'll write a piece of poetry
and if you look on the left side of a dream
you'll recognize our ghosts breakin free

and yes I remember, I'm used to it
I remember, in the perfection of sunset
everything is shown for what it is

it wasn't destiny or chance that made us who we are
it was all because of God's mistakes

look at the colours beyond this glass
look at the heavens that never rest
another breath you draw will shred no cloud
and stop no dawn

(this is for my best friend, but she doesn't know)

OVERSEAS

running down my body
it's an electric breeze
forgotten dreams have haunted me for years
now I'm rowing overseas
waiting for the breeze to cease
I wonder where you're hiding now.
what if I found you on the next island?
close to the route of my thoughts
I asked the sky, no answers
just another day of rain, I know.

I can still hear you, sense you
fear you and it hurts
what time has foretold me for years
I've tried to invent a distance
but it's much worse than yesterday
I wonder how far is home in this night
I don't want to find you on a different island
you who mark the route of my thoughts
I'll ask the seas not to answer while
a tidal wave will take me home
[back to port stoned].

(I don't even remember why I wrote this, maybe I don't even like it, but it's built around the Bminor chord and only God knows how I love it, there are thousands of waves in that motherfucking chord)

THIS MESS I'M IN ( WHAT I AM)

this mess I'm in seems to concern
the whole universe, the whole universe
and I don't know what else this night
has put aside for me, aside for me
this mess I'm in that makes me wish
I was made to quit, but I'm made to fight
swim in a sea that's my prison made of all the feelings I hide

though I don't care
although I don't seem to recognize
the icy light still burning in my eyes
I'm messin it all up again
I'm stuck in this defeaning pain
silence

this mess I'm in seems to be shaped
on the nightmare I've tried to shatter
you're there, in a parallel mirror
to reflect the worthless dreams I have, all I am

though I don't care
although I don't seem to recognize
the icy light still burning in my eyes
I'm messin it all up again
I'm stuck in this defeaning pain
silence

I'm just asking for silence
wonder where it's gone
it's not hiding here with me
has it come to visit you?

(written 2 years ago, when I was dead)

PERSPECTIVES

sitting on the stairs
looking at the holes in my memory
remember when only you could come around and hurt me?
sitting on the stairs
I see that the sky is still above me
what else is meant to last apart from it?

sitting on these stairs
wishing that the world could end here
remember when only you could hold my hand and save me?
sitting on these stairs
I keep everything unspoken
just to see if you can hear me anyway

and if you know a better place
where different stars have the same name
take me there, take me home.

(too many things to say about it..)

AND NOW?

you know I've read too many books
to be afraid of never ending stories
you know I've seen too many signs
along the way to be afraid of deceiving things
I am no longer small and feeling alone
darkness and time are nothing I fear
and now, what shall I do?

guess what's just come around to find me
my dear old fear of not having you here
oh, I must look so lonely, but whoever you see
it's not me, it's not me, I'm fine
I'm the secret desperation in nobody's head
too busy smiling to living ones and now
and now what I shall do, now that I fear you
now that I fear you

(written after a whole night spent listening to safe trip home)

21/03: THE WEATHER WAS AWFUL

as we run fast, this to be the last
of all our damned races against life,
the rain that's runnin down my beating body,
and the thunders
noises coming from the abyss of my own memory
cutting the face of this endless night,
and the morning to be golden signs
of the fact that you're mine.
as we run fast, the bleeding hands of my soul to hold you.
I'm sincere I don't need the air to be weak
cos I know that I'm the only one
to notice that it's full of ancient curses again. (curses again, curses again)
look at the stains marking the light of this day
as we run fast this to be the last of my pains.

as we stand by the way the clouds fly
had never bothered me so much so far
just like the things I thought I would've never told you
and the lightning
atoms blasting in the silence of our deserts
taking a photograph of this useless fright
and the evening to be peaceful signs
of the fact that you're mine.
as we run fast, the bleeding hands of my soul to hold you.
I'm sincere I don't need the air to be weak
cos I know that I'm the only one
to notice that it's full of ancient curses again. (curses again, curses again)
look at the stains marking the light of this day
as we run fast this to be the last of my pains.

THE END OF THE STREET

I had the strange feeling
it was the last time I walked down that street
don't know how it happened
but the years gone by eventually fell down on me
I say how long would you wait for an answer?
tell me how long would you wait for me?

there was a warning silence
and the colours of the street lights were cheating me
I thought the dark was over
defeated, but then I couldn't see a thing
I say how long would you wait in this darkness?
oh how long would you wait for me?

I thought of you once again
and then I thought of the distances that separate us friends
I looked into my own head
to see if I had ever memorized a chaos like that
I screamed how long would you wait for a comeback?
c'mon how much would you risk for me?

(written after returning from gio's house)